Personal Deadlines

I was thinking about joining the National Novel Writing Month this year, but finally decided against it since I'm working on a novel already (ok, only got 4 chapters down but at least I'm moving along) and thought I should concentrate on that instead.

So, to put things down black on white and leave myself no escape. My previous deadline for my novel was 1 chapter per month. I've actually managed 3 chapters in October, so I've decided that the new deadline is 1 chapter per week(!).

If I really can't manage, then the absolute minimum is 2 chapters per month. (I can imagine December will be a 2 chapters-month with Christmas and all coming up.)

I guess I have to get started on chapter 5 now. =)

Getting cold feet though... Starting to wonder if I'm really good enough to get published (I do it because I love writing, but I'd love to get published) and if anyone will ever want to read my books.

Anyway, there's no way to find out except continue writing and finish it, then see if anyone is willing to publish it...

So... I'm off to get some writing done!

Moodswings

Well, the title of this one says it all, doesn't it? It seems so typically female with moodswings, but lately I seem to suffer from them quite a bit. Drives me insane. Then, I think it's a myth that only females have moodswings, I seem to see several men who have them as well.

Lately my mind just don't seem to be able to stay clear of some things I rather not think about, and so I end up in a pretty bad mood, which probably (certainly) is very unpleasant for the people around me. I know when it happens, and I know I must be a pain to be around, but I just can't get myself into a better mood.

And naturally it works like a downwards spiral... Something sets it off... then I get angry with myself for being in a bad mood, which puts me in an even worse mood... and so on and so forth. Pathetic, isn't it?

I just worry a lot about some things. I like having a good idea about what I'm going to do in the future, and at the moment I'm not really getting any clear indications of anything in my life, and it makes me uncomfortable and I start to worry.

Well, I suppose that's enough self pity for one day. It's Saturday, I should be happy I'm not working... And in a few days my sister comes to visit, which will be nice. Should keep me from brooding too much.

My Very First Blog

So, I've been thinking about this for a very long time. "Hey, a blog might be nice..." And finally, I thought... Oh, what the heck... I'll do it!

Now, don't expect any rocket science here. I'm just a normal person, in fact, I'm more boring than your average person, so there won't be long tales of late nights and sordid deeds... I'm afraid I'm a quiet person who spend most evenings alone with a book.

My most fascinating trait is one people wouldn't see or know about... My avid imagination. (Not always a good thing, mind you! When I'm walking home late at night I see monsters and murderers --and possibly a werewolf-- in every street corner.) I'm spending most of my time creating things in my head... characters, plots, places... and have them act them out.

Lately I've finally started to work on something that has been a dream of mine since I was a silly little girl with a bad perm (I think I was 13), and I've started writing on a book.

I used to say that I wanted to write fantasy, and I still do... But for now I'm writing a Romance novel (pff... I see you scoffing, stop right there... romance is the best selling genre there is!)
It's quite simple really... I love writing... I'm a hopeless romantic... Why shouldn't I write romance novels? I wrote some fantasy (still do for short stories) but no matter what I started writing my characters always ended up falling in love with each other! So I gave up, and now I just write romance and save myself the trouble of trying to prevent them from falling in love =) (In fact, now I encourage it by putting them in compromising situations... *evil laughter*)

Oh, did I mention I'm a bit off-kilter? People just don't realise until they get to know me a bit better, but I have a very odd sense of humour.

Anyway, this is my very first blog, and a very odd one at that, maybe I should have spent more time talking about my day at work (which was very boring btw, if you were wondering) or how bad the weather is (it's actually not raining for once) instead of spending most of the entry talking about my writing. But! It was more fun this way... at least for me... =)