Begone evil fiend!

Hah! Defeat over the blank page at last!
Victory is mine!

The chapter was finally written and I'm so very glad to have it over and done with. Wrote chapter 21 as well (which did have some difficult parts... ie. my first love scene... I was blushing half of the chapter...!)

Been back in Sweden for the weekend and between visiting relatives and purchasing all the Swedish goodies I've not had for a while there's simply been no time for writing. I will get right back to it this coming week though, and I'm still on my deadline since I have a personal goal of one chapter per week, and chapter 21 was written for this week.

Actually, I'm ahead of schedule since my final deadline is August, and I only have about 100 pages left to write *cheers* Difficult 100 pages... but only 100 pages nonetheless. After that starts the "real" work though of editing the manuscript, but I have to admit that I quite look forward to it.

Tomorrow it's off back to Netherlands again. Have to admit I don't look forward to it, except for knowing I can get back to my manuscript... I really want to finish it now and start the editing process. *fingers crossed*

A Blank Page

Do you have any idea how horrible it feels when you're sitting there behind your desk staring at a blank page, and you have absolutely no idea what to write? Well, trust me, it's not a pleasant feeling. Especially not after you just wrote five chapters without hesitating for more than a few moments at a couple of points.

Then all of a sudden it's there. The blank page. It's staring at you from the screen, all white and without a single letter written on it. (Except Chapter Twenty at the top, but that hardly counts.) It's mocking you, telling you that your inspiration is gone and you'll never get any further.

Ok, it's actually not that bad... Interestingly enough I know what to write after this piece, I just don't know what to write right now. I've come to the point where my two characters are getting married (they're getting married already? you ask... Well... Yes! If I can figure out how to write it...)

Maybe I should skip this and get back to it later, but I have a feeling that if I do that I won't be able to write it at all. So I'm sitting here, staring at that blank, white page mocking me with its lack of words.

Even with my panic during Chapter Six I didn't have the page mocking me. Something's gone awfully wrong here. What am I to do? It's like a chicken race really... I stare at the page... The page stares at me... The first one to break down and start crying lose. I've not been beaten yet, but I've also not started writing anything yet.

How difficult can a wedding be to write? you ask. Well, you know what. A couple of days ago I would have asked the same thing. Now I know... It's pure agony. I can't even get the first word down.

I'm sure it's different for everyone though. Maybe every writer has their own little terror that they don't know how to write. Up until now I never would have thought that mine would be a simple little wedding. I was wrong... Very, very wrong.

Well... Back to staring at my blank, white page...